What I Do at 3 in the Morning When I Couldn’t Sleep

sleeping problems
My biological clock has effed up so bad since my long holiday at home. 11 pm is practically daylight for me and I sleep at the crack of dawn 5 days out of the week. The only night I managed to sleep early (by early I mean 1 am) for the past few months was the night my boyfriend went back to the UK.

I was grieving and sleeping was the only way I can manage to get through the night. I think my sleeping problem has taken its toll on my skin. They have been dry and flaky for a couple of months and I swear it’s driving me up the wall because moisturizing does not help at all.

I tried using my old skincare’s day cream because that stuff made me oily like no other but nope. My skin is still dry as heck at the end of the day so I will have to fix my sleeping schedule so I can have good skin.


I rarely read in the morning unless I’m hooked on a book that I read during the day and I can’t wait to know the ending. This brings me back to 2009 when Twilight Saga was hot and I spent the whole night until the morning reading New Moon because I wanted to know what happened when Edward left Bella all alone and did he really want to go through exposing himself in the sun in front of thousands of people. Not that I complain he sparkles, anyway. He’s gorgeous.

Googling… stuff.

I was so intensely obsessed with Twilight I had this belief that vampires exist so I spent the night googling weird shit like “do vampires really exist” and I stumbled upon journal blogs of researchers who have met real-life vampires and for a second there I thought I had a chance at finding my one true love, Edward Cullen. I was fourteen and dumb. AndinlovewithEdwardCullen. Istillam.

TV shows

What better ways of being a night owl than to spend it watching TV shows? I do prefer series more than movies because a 10 seasons on a good plot with handsome leading characters? Yes, please. And series are just more fun.

Every episode is a never-ending drama that will keep you wanting more and clicking ‘Next episode’ until you’re at the latest and you don’t know what to do because you want more but the newest episode hasn’t come out yet. Hmph. I’m excluding Pretty Little Liars, though. That show should have ended a few seasons ago.

Rewatching Malay dramas

You know when you watch cheezy Malay dramas there would be certain scenes that are disgustingly cute but so satisfying at the same time and you keep rewatching that part over and over again when you have nothing better to do, say, at 3 in the morning? I do that a lot. Sometimes I get goosebumps watching them but the Malay in me likes that a lot.

Listening to Malay songs

I don’t normally listen to Malay songs but I have a playlist where I keep my favourites and I like to listen to them at night. They’re perfect when you want to be an emotional wreck. My ultimate favourites are Indah Lelapku by Izwan Pilus and Cinta Terakhir by Aiman. They. Are. So. Good!

Reading online

I was a huge fan of Wattpad and Asianfanfics. Yes, besides Twilight, I was also obsessed with One Direction and EXO but I grew up and I realised that I don’t have time to fangirl on boybands and idols anymore.

My obsession was to the point where I cried like I lost a limb when Zayn Malik left One Direction and listening to nothing else but EXO albums every single day for months! Right now, my current online reads are: Sixpenceee scary stories, Reddit beauty guru chat, and YouTalkTrash forum.


Last but not least, blogging. It’s already 6:02 AM.

So what do you do when you can’t sleep?

  • I rarely cannot not sleep… if I stay awake for more than 30 minutes, I will get up and do something, mostly look at social media on my phone.


  • Googling stuff is sooo accurate ! Sometimes I just look up anything in imdb, wikipedia, "celebrities that are actually lesbians" ………. and it was oddly satisfying.

  • Elsa takkan tengok tv jam 3 pagi hakhak takut nak duduk depan tv pagi pagi sorang sorang. tapi paling selalu elsa akan watch movies on youtube tak kira lah movie lama atau baru huhu

  • so there're at least 6 Indonesian songs in your playlist? Cool. Maybe it's like how we love Siti Nurhaliza in here. We adored her so much since the Cindai era.

  • Indonesian songs are awesome! I love Peterpan (now Noah)! x

  • TV series tak semestinya tgk kt TV haha erin pun takut tgk tv 3 pagi eee seram teringat The Ring.

  • i know right! lagi lagi google something yang mindfu*ked omg best

  • social media is also one of the reasons why i can't sleep early. hmph.

  • tengok korean drama will be the best choice kalau sy tak blh tidur! 😀

  • ahh yes! but lately ni takde korean dramas yang menarik minat erin nak tengok :/

  • Doing something and being active, I find always helps get back to sleep than wasting time trying to sleep!?

    Parie x

  • you're right. when you're doing something productive during the day, it is easier to fall asleep at night as your body is tired.

  • Selalu jugak terjaga dari tidur tengah-tengah malam camni. Nak tengok tv sorang-sorang memang taklah, sebab nanti mesti terbayang bukan-bukan, contohnya benda seram la. Huhu. End up scrolling instagram, twitter sampailah mata jadi layu kemudian terus terlelap tidur 😀

  • I do all of these things too!! <3 Lovely post

    Amelia | Amelia Grace

  • thank you!

  • seram nak tgk tv malam malam so rela duduk dalam bilik je kalau tak boleh tidur 🙂

  • I have also been having a hard time trying to sleep. I usually make myself a cup of tea and watch youtube videos until I fall asleep

    Sarah | What Sarah Writes

  • a cup of tea always works 🙂

  • Some movies can be bad so a series is a lot more fun to watch. I love this post and your blog is lovely 🙂 http://www.bauchlefashion.com/2016/09/shes-got-look.html

  • thank you so much Heather! 🙂

  • Great post dear, I agree with reading and blogging especially – thanks for sharing!

    Faye .x

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  • you're welcome x

  • I have been extremely depressed lately and it has messed up my sleep cycle too. I've been sleeping at 3AM sometimes not even sleep at all and just be up for more than 36 hours. Whenever I can't sleep I just try to write down my thoughts in a notebook, watch shows and Youtube or if none of that works, read a book (although reading a book keeps me up more than letting me sleep because I can't put down a book once I get into it). ^^

    Joanne at Urhappybunnie

  • i'm so sorry to hear that. maybe you can try a cup of chamomile tea before bed? x

  • uuhuuii kite baru jumpe. mgkin semlm interet lembab sngt kot.hehehe

  • yay! 🙂

  • Googling and blogging for sure muahaha

  • dua tu yang best buat malam malam 🙂

  • usually downloading something since internet is fast in the midnight to morning 😀

  • aahh true that! 🙂

  • tengok anime… drama jepun…. read novels… comics… dengar radio lagu leleh…

  • haha lebih kurang la dgn erin 🙂

  • my god u remind me on those days i spend reading fanfics like crazy. i stopped when i grew older. and yes i cried too when Zayn left. nowadays i felt like i have 100 things to do on the next morning, so i better sleep n start planning for tomorrow.

  • good times kan! bila dah besar, takde masa dah for all that 🙂